Senseless Beatings

by Kim Oakley
(San Diego)

Never Stop Talking With God

I am an eyewitness. A witness of beatings: beatings born of fragility, ignorance and disregard. I witnessed when and where those beatings pelted lives and transformed thinking and how the beatings colored attitudes and spilled into the world around us.

I know this story well, because it haunts me. I have lived with its memories and lessons, its unresolved legacy for over twenty years....but there is hope.

I will not stop believing, though there are nights so dark and days so long I think I can't go on....but God has always given me strength beyond anything I could do on my own....or what man or woman could offer.

I have posted videos of my son on you tube under kgaccount and cdfoakley in hopes that it will bring awareness to the darkest and most complicated sides of autism, and even now, I see God working in all these long years.

My son continues to improve now in his twenties....which is odd, considering all the books written on cures usually occur with kids who were high functioning and under the age of 8 or 10.

God's timing is perfect, I agree. The testimony I have is that I have nothing to offer outside of God's power and grace in my son's life. And that's hard to swallow, as I've always thought I was tough or intelligent enough to figure it all out and fix everything.

God continues to show me that His grace is sufficient for us and I am to rely on Him....as we've had an army of professionals attempt to help our son and they have all failed. Yet, when we least expect it, our son improves...as he is now...he is still getting better at his "older autism age."

Our son was born healthy. I don't know what happened. It could've been vaccine injury, it may not have been. It doesn't really matter at this point.

Our main focus is bringing him comfort and relief daily. Not to hyperfocus on who or what made this autism.....or self injury or seizure disorder.

Bless you for your amazing words of encouragement and truth.....what a gift you have!
Another sister in Christ
San Diego CA